This week has been challenging for my training, because I was in Las Vegas with my friends for 4 days and didn't have the usual opportunity to hike in my favorite Griffith Park. Therefore I "hiked" along the Strip for 5 hours 2 days in a row! I must tell you that those were some of the most strenuous hikes I've ever had! At least my legs and feet were in ridiculous pain and my eyes wished they were looking at a more natural and spiritually enriching landscape... I still got a chance to get out and go to Redrocks, 30 minutes away from the city of vanity and hiked for another couple of hours along the ancient Indian camp-sites. A beautiful treat for the soul:)
Today my 3 visiting girl-friends went on a tour to San Diego, while I stayed home and have enjoyed simple things, like sleeping in, going for a short run, going out for breakfast with a friend, polishing my nails and now making this entry in my blog. Such a peaceful and beautifully uneventful day! A friend of mine called and asked what I would like for a birthday present, thinking that I might still need something for Kilimanjaro trip. I told her that I have prepared and packed pretty much everything and the only thing I am missing is a mascara for eye-lashes. She started laughing at the thought that I might want to use a mascara during my climb:) Of course, I won't! Therefore it is something I can use before and after the climb:) Nor will I need polished nails or lipstick or even a shampoo or body cream. There will be no showers, very little water and it will be freaking cold. This is probably the reason why I am the only woman in a group of 8 people. Having had 3 girl-friends staying with me for the past 2 weeks, now I realize more than ever that the absence of an opportunity to beautify herself is catastrophic for a woman. Not taking a shower for 7 days is more so. Not being able to pee in a restroom any time the need comes is terrifying even for me...
But I don't care nonetheless:) I am not going to climb Kilimanjaro to impress anybody, including myself. I don't need to parade it or to seek acknowledgement for it. I just feel happy that I had this strange dream which felt so good that I found it in me to pursue it. I am proud that I am allowing myself to follow my heart, no matter how far, deep or high it will take me. I am trusting myself. I really trust that I know what I need and that I am able to take care of myself in any situation. There is so much peace and comfort I am feeling inside me, as well as gratitude for simply BEING ME.
Tomorrow I am turning 33. 2 weeks from tomorrow I will start climbing Kilimanjaro for 7 days with 7 men. I am blessed to have the most amazing friends in my life. I am the happiest person alive, because I have been creating a Spiritual Counseling career, my ultimate heart's calling with which I am able to help people at a very deep level. Even though I don't have a relationship at this moment and my future is very obscure, my heart is full of love, gratitude, peace, joy and happiness. I am happy to be alive and I am happy to be me, just the way I am.
P.S. Of course, I need an eye-lash mascara! I am a woman after all:)
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